living my dream

akong baby na cute padulong gwapo!

2009-09-21T18:00:00.000-07:00

Finally, my tummy was opened last September 15, 2009, 10:17 pm, the same day of my birthday to get him out!. Allen Lloyd N. Soldevilla..nickname, botsoy gamay is coming to SF without me…

a woman, a wife, a mother to be

2009-06-12T23:31:00.000-07:00

She's had a lot of lovers before him. She's used to men wanting her. Ever since she got into this place, she's had men tell her that they couldn't stop thinking about her. That they longed for her to be with them day and night, asking them to take her, to claim her. She'd laugh at their little attempts to have her stay with them. They'd promise her the world. And sometimes she'd believe to one of them. They promised her anything they could get their hands on. She thought it foolish. There was nothing she couldn't get for herself. The pain was all worth it. It made her stronger. If she could get through that, what else could she not do on her own? She would look at these men, these lovers of hers who would be so infatuated with her to the point of dying for her. She'd humor them a bit. Give them what they wanted. A night with her. She would beg them to stay in the morning, but they wouldn't (but some would). And in the morning only to find he's gone. She would call his name in hopes that he would respond. But he would be long gone and most probably, he would never come back to her. They had their share of her, she would want nothing more. She knew that time would come they would no longer want her and so she left. She would rather have them longing for her than them tired of her. She would not be thrown away. A woman of her kind was not fit to be unwanted.

Her affairs would never end with results. By results, it meant in her womb. She'd never allow it.

This one shouldn't have been different. It was the same old thing. Her affairs with this young man (She liked his name. Mark Allen. She liked how it sounded between breathless gasps and low groans) were merely physical. That's how it had started. She realized that she'd been seeing him more than any of her other lovers. That she asked for him almost every night. It had become so normal that she didn't notice a lot of things. She didn't notice how he held him lovingly after each time, how she kissed him tenderly after he finally dozed off after hours of talking to her.

She notice how he too not failed to leave her before morning.But what surprised her was that he returned to spend the whole day with her.

And on a February morning, She looked at him, as he lay beside her. He was catching his breath before he moved an arm around her waist, nuzzling the side of her neck. She chuckled softly and closed her eyes, stroking his hair - her fingers running through the strands of his hair. There were no words between them. She did not know what to say. She felt her heart pounding on her breast and her hold on him had tightened. He stopped, he noticed this and pulled back. His hand move to cup her cheek and he met her eyes, respectfully, he looked into them. There was no intimidation or awe like most lovers. There was just tenderness. The tenderness she didn't know she'd yearned for until now. Her eyes softened and she did not care if he saw it at that moment. He only smiled at her. He leaned in to kiss her, moving back an inch a few moments after. He let her rest on him. She felt the beating of his
heart.

She clutched onto his shoulders and took a deep breath.

"Mark Allen..." she called his name softly.

He was her lover. She was his lover.

She was his. She took his hand and placed it on her stomach.
He was confused by this and he looked at her.

"It's yours."

smother me

2009-05-18T21:17:00.001-07:00

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own (leaves me all alone)
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time(all the time)

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of

my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(4X- smother me)

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
and how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So Baby I'm, Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(don't let me be alone)

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?(3X smother me)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
the one who calls you baby.

the knots were tied!!!!

2009-05-17T19:02:00.000-07:00

WHAT YOU SEE IS REAL!!!

MRS. LIZLEE SOLDEVILLA AND MR. MARK ALLEN SOLDEVILLA

237 reasons of having sex

2009-03-24T01:00:00.000-07:00

237 Reasons to Have Sex by John M. Grohol, Psy.D.

I'm not sure who asked the question to begin with (as though you needed a reason!), but here is the full list of 237 reasons that people said why they have sex:

1. I was ''in the heat of the moment.''
2. It just happened.
3. I was bored.
4. It just seemed like ''the thing to do.''
5. Someone dared me.
6. I desired emotional closeness "(i.e.," intimacy).
7. I wanted to feel closer to God.
8. I wanted to gain acceptance from my friends.
9. It's "exciting," adventurous.
10. I wanted to make up after a fight.
11. I wanted to get rid of aggression.
12. I was under the influence of drugs.
13. I wanted to have something to tell my friends.
14. I wanted to express my love for the person.
15. I wanted to experience the physical pleasure.
16. I wanted to show my affection to the person.
17. I felt like I owed it to the person.
18. I was attracted to the person.
19. I was sexually aroused and wanted the release.
20. My friends were having sex and I wanted to fit in.
21. It feels good.
22. My partner kept insisting.
23. The person was famous and I wanted to be able to say I had sex with him/her.
24. I was physically forced to.
25. I was verbally coerced into it.
26. I wanted the person to love me.
27. I wanted to have a child.
28. I wanted to make someone else jealous.
29. I wanted to have more sex than my friends.
30. I was married and you're supposed to.
31. I was tired of being a virgin.
32. I was ''horny.''
33. I wanted to feel loved.
34. I was feeling lonely.
35. Everyone else was having sex.
36. I wanted the attention.
37. It was easier to ''go all the way'' than to stop.
38. I wanted to ensure the relationship was ''committed.''
39. I was competing with someone else to ''get the person.''
40. I wanted to ''gain control'' of the person.
41. I was curious about what the person was like in bed.
42. I was curious about sex.
43. I wanted to feel attractive.
44. I wanted to please my partner.
45. I wanted to display submission.
46. I wanted to release anxiety/stress.
47. I didn't know how to say ''no.''
48. I felt like it was my duty.
49. I wanted to end the relationship.
50 My friends pressured me into it.
51. I wanted the adventure/excitement.
52. I wanted the experience.
53. I felt obligated to.
54. It's fun.
55. I wanted to get even with someone "(i.e.," get revenge).
56. I wanted to be popular.
57. It would get me gifts.
58. I wanted to act out a fantasy.
59. I hadn't had sex for a while.
60. The person was ''available.''
61. I didn't want to ''lose'' the person.
62. I thought it would help ''trap'' a new partner.
63. I wanted to make someone else jealous.
64. I felt sorry for the person.
65. I wanted to feel powerful.
66. I wanted to ''possess'' the person.
67. I wanted to release tension.
68. I wanted to feel good about myself.
69. I was slumming.
70. I felt rebellious.
71. I wanted to intensify my relationship.
72. It seemed like the natural next step.
73. I wanted to be nice.
74. I wanted to feel connected to the person.
75. I wanted to feel young.
76. I wanted to manipulate him/her into doing something for me.
77. I wanted him/her to stop bugging me about sex.
78. I wanted to hurt/humiliate the person.
79. I wanted the person to feel good about themselves.
80. I didn't want to disappoint the person.
81. I was trying to ''get over'' an earlier person/relationship.
82. I wanted to reaffirm my sexual orientation.
83. I wanted to try out new sexual techniques or positions.
84. I felt guilty.
85. My hormones were out of control.
86. It was the only way my partner would spend time with me.
87. It became a habit.
88. I wanted to keep my partner happy.
89. I had no self-control.
90. I wanted to communicate at a deeper level.
91. I was afraid my partner would have an affair if I didn't have sex with him/her.
92. I was curious about my sexual abilities.
93. I wanted a ''spiritual'' experience.
94. It was just part of the relationship ''routine''.
95. I wanted to lose my inhibitions.
96. I got ''carried away.''
97. I needed another ''notch on my belt.''
98. The person demanded that I have sex with him/her.
99. The opportunity presented itself.
100. I wanted to see what it would be like to have sex while stoned "(e.g.," on marijuana or some other drug).
101. It's considered ''taboo'' by society.
102. I wanted to increase the number of sex partners I had experienced.
103. The person was too ''hot'' (sexy) to resist.
104. I thought it would relax me.
105. I thought it would make me feel healthy.
106. I wanted to experiment with new experiences.
107. I wanted to see what it would be like to have sex with another person.
108. I thought it would help me to fall asleep.
109. I could brag to other people about my sexual experience.
110. It would allow me to ''get sex out of my system'' so that I could focus on other things.
111. I wanted to decrease my partner's desire to have sex with someone else.
112. It would damage my reputation if I said ''no.''
113. The person was too physically attractive to resist.
114. I wanted to celebrate something.
115. I was seduced.
116. I wanted to make the person feel better about themselves.
117. I wanted to increase the emotional bond by having sex.
118. I wanted to see whether sex with a different partner would feel different or better.
119. I was mad at my "partner," so I had sex with someone else.
120. I wanted to fulfill a previous promise to my partner.
121. It was expected of me.
122. I wanted to keep my partner from straying.
123. I wanted the pure pleasure.
124. I wanted to dominate the other person.
125. I wanted to make a conquest.
126. I'm addicted to sex.
127. It was a favor to someone.
128. I wanted to be used or degraded.
129. Someone offered me money to do it.
130. I was drunk.
131. It seemed like good exercise.
132. I was pressured into doing it.
133. The person offered to give me drugs for doing it.
134. I was frustrated and needed relief.
135. It was a romantic setting.
136. I felt insecure.
137. My regular partner is "boring," so I had sex with someone else.
138. I was on the ''rebound'' from another relationship.
139. I wanted to boost my self-esteem.
140. I wanted to get my partner to stay with me.
141. Because of a bet.
142. It was a special occasion.
143. I wanted to get a special favor from someone.
144. I wanted to get back at my partner for having cheated on me.
145. I wanted to enhance my reputation.
146. I wanted to keep warm.
147. I wanted to punish myself.
148. I wanted to break up a rival's relationship by having sex with his/her partner.
149. I wanted to stop my partners' nagging.
150. I wanted to impress friends.
151. I wanted to achieve an orgasm.
152. I wanted to brag to my friends about my conquests.
153. I wanted to improve my sexual skills.
154. I wanted to get a job.
155. I wanted to get a raise.
156. I wanted to get a promotion.
157. I wanted to satisfy a compulsion.
158. I wanted to make money.
159. I wanted to keep my partner satisfied.
160. I wanted to change the topic of conversation.
161. I wanted to get out of doing something.
162. I wanted to test my compatibility with a new partner.
163. I wanted to get a partner to express love.
164. I wanted to put the passion back into my relationship.
165. I wanted to prevent a breakup.
166. I wanted to become one with another person.
167. I wanted to get a favor from someone.
168. I wanted to breakup my relationship.
169. I wanted to give someone else a sexually transmitted disease "(e.g.," "herpes," AIDS).
170. I wanted to breakup another's relationship.
171. I wanted to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
172. I wanted to make myself feel better about myself.
173. I wanted to get rid of a headache.
174. I was afraid to say ''no'' due to the possibility of physical harm.
175. I wanted to keep my partner from straying.
176. I wanted to burn calories.
177. I wanted to even the score with a cheating partner.
178. I wanted to hurt an enemy.
179. I wanted to feel older.
180. I wanted to raise my self-esteem.
181. It was an initiation rite to a club or organization.
182. I wanted to become more focused on work – sexual thoughts are distracting.
183. I wanted to say ''I've missed you.''
184. I wanted to celebrate a birthday or anniversary or special occasion.
185. I wanted to say ''I'm sorry.''
186. I wanted to return a favor.
187. I wanted to say ''Thank you.''
188. I wanted to welcome someone home.
189. I wanted to say ''goodbye.''
190. I wanted to defy my parents.
191. I wanted to relieve menstrual cramps.
192. I wanted to relieve ''blue balls.''
193. I wanted to get the most out of life.
194. I wanted to feel feminine.
195. I wanted to feel masculine.
196. I am a sex addict.
197. I wanted to see what all the fuss is about.
198. I thought it would boost my social status.
199. The person had a lot of money.
200. The person's physical appearance turned me on.
201. The person was a good dancer.
202. Someone had told me that this person was good in bed.
203. The person had beautiful eyes.
204. The person made me feel sexy.
205. An erotic movie had turned me on.
206. The person had taken me out for an expensive dinner.
207. The person was a good kisser.
208. The person had bought me jewelry.
209. The person had a great sense of humor.
210. The person seemed self-confident.
211. The person really desired me.
212. The person was really desired by others.
213. I wanted to gain access to that person's friend.
214. I felt jealous.
215. The person flattered me.
216. I wanted to see if I could get the other person into bed.
217. The person had a desirable body.
218. I had not had sex in a long time.
219. The person smelled nice.
220. The person had an attractive face.
221. I saw the person naked and could not resist.
222. I was turned on by the sexual conversation.
223. The person was intelligent.
224. The person caressed me.
225. The person wore revealing clothes.
226. The person had too much to drink and I was able to take advantage of them.
227. I knew the person was usually ''out of my league.''
228. The person was mysterious.
229. I realized I was in love.
230. I wanted to forget about my problems.
231. I wanted to reproduce.
232. I wanted to feel loved.
233. I wanted my partner to notice me.
234. I wanted to help my partner forget about their problems.
235. I wanted to lift my partner's spirits.
236. I wanted to submit to my partner.
237. I wanted to make my partner feel powerful.

This list comes from a University of Texas study published August 2007 issue of the Archives of Sexual Behavior . It asked 400 students and volunteers why they had sex. Keep in mind, most of the subjects were college-age students

baBy

2009-02-20T23:29:00.000-08:00

"infant" derived from the Latin word infans, meaning "unable to speak."
----- but they do have finger nails"

they tell lies

2009-02-06T19:39:00.000-08:00

the best lie he ever said----> "biyaan lang tika ug mamatay na ko"

tan-awon bitaw nato...bantay ka lang

is this it?End?

2009-02-03T22:38:00.000-08:00

I wish I knew what was going through your mind while you were faking it all that time you're as cold as ice and wouldn't return my kisses..is it not warm enough for you? how could you promise to never hurt me then lied to me..on my face? why can't you see everything would've been alright if you'd been honest if only you hadn't lied man...you know I'm not dumb...i would always know what's a lie and what's not.. I'm only giving you a hard time cause I'm hurting couldn't you see I was falling? I thought "we" were working. but how could this work now that you lied?i cannot trust you any longer...I'm sorry you said you didn't wanna hurt me you wanted to be good. So what did you think would happen when I found out the truth in the end? You did what I feared most When I started to trust you, You took advantage of me. I thought you told me you changed, and i even changed for you yet you were still the same. You're still the guy I used to know, And I can't take it... I used to think you were all I need, now you're my worst enemy. You killed my soul, I'm dead. I swear to God You shall regret it, Soon.

ate to her baby sister

2009-01-30T19:07:00.000-08:00

We grew up together with the same nanay and tatay...
You're the only sister I ever had...
We never shared a room though...
I hated having you in a room..
As a little child you are, you're so disastrous...
As time went by, you became my best friend...
The one I could trust my secret, until the end...
When I needed someone to talk to , an ear to whisper on...
You were there standing inside that crib...
staring..smiling so sweetly..

To me you are so young, and this world's too big..
I may have shared you my secrets before..
You didn't understood any of those anyway..
Yes you are older now...that's why i can't share anymore..
You might understand my babbles this time..
Yet you've grown..it's not enough for you to handle my griefs..

My life has changed when i lived away from you, nanay and tatay...
You see little sister...things get complicated in the city...
Ate has done things you can never imagine..
Back there with you...i had crushes..but have you ever see me cry?
Here little lady..I've spent buckets of tears...
Because i fell in love...which you've yet to feel my dear...
When you grow a bit bigger...
Maybe you'll feel the searing pain in the heart too...
But as of now...
The pain you know is only when you have a booboo...

rain rain----> won't go away....

2009-01-15T00:24:00.000-08:00

it's been raining since last night...it's damn so cold...is there a typhoon?...naaahh uhhh... people of Davao are proud to say, "walay bagyo sa Davao". In fact it' s true for about a decade or so...because we are in the Southern part of Mindanao...It is safe from typhoons because it lies outside the typhoon belt. Weew...I learned that from my geography class this morning in which we coincidentally discussed about the atmosphere...just in time for us understand why weather has come this way...but why is it raining this hard this past days then? why is it this cold? has La Nina came early?or has global warming got to do something about this?last December and early this year, it had been recorded to be the coldest days experienced by the Philippines..it is said that this kind of weather will last up to the end of January and then we'll have to experience an early summer..why the sudden change in climate? well...i really don't know...and I'm still trying to find out...actually my teacher left us that question for my homework...so i guess i should end this here...so i could find the answer... kudos to me...

it's a new year...and a new me? NOT!!

2009-01-06T21:04:00.000-08:00

as 2008 ended, just anyone would start thinking about becoming and making NEW...new as in goodbye to the old, filthy, ugly things last year. that should include going out shopping for new things to replace the old ones...but to me...nah uhh...no such thing as that...i'm facing a new year with the same old me...no shopping...no new clothes...no new shoes....new bag or even a new boyfriend!--i wouldn't want the last anyway...who said i don't want something new???? I do! but i just can't have...why....i got no bills...hummmmmn...yeah..yeah...what can a poor girl do about that? i'll just have to change my inner me...someone's helping me...and it started yesterday...i felt good on the first stage of renewing myself as receiving Him into my life...i just hope this will be a success...

And my new year's resolution.... charrrraaaaannnn....save...yes...learn to save money...so i could have something new next year....

i'm still here...and i feel so high

2008-12-11T18:48:00.000-08:00

well...well....well... just posting for the sake of having a new post....
ohhhhh...not really... i'm posting this...to let you know how i feel...

i was not given much time to visit here...well... actually...i was given much much much time...i just won't use it...see... I'm too hooked with my love life... i could even say I'm a full time girlfriend and part time student... well....that's what love can do.... i could leave everything in my life behind and just stay by his side... i could die by my lovers side... i don't fear anything... i don't worry a thing... as long as he's by my side... i already have everything...

my oh my...

2008-11-07T21:01:00.000-08:00

what a news...
i was really shocked to find out that one of my favorite guy classmates has finally become a young father...and his preggy partner was a close friend of mine..why did they have to do that now that graduation is up close?hmmmnnnn..I'll just pray they'd have a good life with a baby around...i still think they're too young for such responsibilities.

home sweet home

2008-10-19T19:32:00.000-07:00

I'm at home now..
back to my home town...
it's good to be here...I'm free from all the worries of the world of academe. no plates, no papers to do..no anyhting except for the nagging mother and my terror father...and this boring town...hahaha..it's not too good to stay here then..

i'm so tired!i've had enough!

2008-10-15T16:22:00.000-07:00

the person didn't just took my old friendster account from me,
he now took my new one too, the one i made to replace what he took

from me..why?has he not know was mercy is?i did not do anything

to him!why does he have to do this to me?i hate you! whoever you

are!you might want to take my other stuff?have you had

enough?fu**er!!!!!!

asa ka kita ani?

2008-10-05T23:34:00.000-07:00

a math teacher...

na magRAP!

ani jud mahitabo...pag ang rapper mahimong teacher!
KUDOS ! YOUNGMAH!

hahaha..la jud ko pananghid ani ba..
sorry!

idol!

2008-10-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

the song is called "when"
lyrics my youngmah, performed by youngmah,beetoo and mike and sabz?

banga pa daw si mike,sabz ug beetoo ani..
pero karon...
awww..mutumba na ug lata!

ako nang mga talented na brods and sister!

i miss my hair!

2008-10-03T02:39:00.000-07:00

this was september last year..look at that.. i still have my long hair...

failing and falling

2008-09-27T03:01:00.000-07:00

i thought i was getting used to it..you know..like failing all my math and physics related subjects each year!i really thought!i haven't cried a tear or felt depressed the moment i knew i was to fail..and would fall so hard on the ground! but after a sleep..i wake up feeling so weak..and started to cry..i do not just fail my grades!but also my parents expectations!poor me!

EAT RAW-EAT DEAD-SURVIVE THE WILDERNESS

2008-09-24T20:19:00.000-07:00

WILL YOU DO THESE?JUST TO SURVIVE?EWWWW..TRY WATCHING THIS WHILE YOU EAT YOUR DECENT MEAL AND LET'S SEE IF YOU SURVIVE.

'ZE NUMBER EIGHT

2008-09-24T19:15:00.000-07:00

this "WHY 8" tag's from Eric..here are eight facts about me that I would never think twice sharing you:

1.I am a Woman..a real one, I never had a doubt about my sexual orientation...

2. I am passionate, i never think twice in showing passion to the one i love..I'd show my love and affection at anytime and at any place.

3. I love green..anything green except those that are slimy(eeewwww)

4. I study BS Architecture at the University of the Philippines Mindanao and currently on my senior year now..

5. I usually hangout with friends late night 'til dawn..but it's been 3 weeks since i stopped..i even stopped smoking and drinking..i'm stopping for good..as in no more coming back..

6. I love to eat, it'll do as my hobby!hehaaah..that's why I'm starting to gain weight..i just eat anything..as long as it's accepted to be called food!

7. I love adventure, but i haven't had any good enough to be called adventure for the past 4 years..I'm too busy at school.

8.i love being loved..i really like knowing that someone loves me..and hate it when i fell unloved..

these are the only people i could share this tag:

Myra

Nelson

Brylle

Miles

Kamille

Mia

jacob

eric

The Rules for this tag:

1. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.

2. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.

3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.

4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

you're all her's-i have my own now

2008-09-18T23:33:00.000-07:00

who knew it would hurt this hard?
actually we both knew it was coming.
you called me liar to my face!my beautiful face!
it's good we know who the liar is.
i hope she fulfills you now,
like she did to us.
what i know is...i never really loved you..
i never felt in you what i feel for him now...
it's my first time to fall in love then..

post..post..post

2008-09-17T05:57:00.000-07:00

whhhhaaaaaaaaaat a name...
tsk tsk tsk..
i didn't meant it..
why?is there something wrong
if you meet a person
and you realize you call your lovers in same way?
whatl's wrong about it?
weeeeeeeeeee..
i don't care if it's wrong anyway..

-MOOCHIE-

a very long 24-hour party

2008-09-15T18:58:00.000-07:00

what a long day it was..
the best birthday I've ever had..
my brother and my lover..
they got along with each other too well..
i suddenly noticed they look similar in many angles..
they're like brothers..
they were both drunk and both look so funny..
they really made me so happy..
thank you for giving me the best day of my life...
thank you manghod..
thankyou my moochie...
thank you everyone..

i sang this song for them last night...
hahaha..

SIX LONG YEARS IN COLLEGE

2008-09-09T21:21:00.000-07:00

Lizlee I. Nomananap
4 BSA

Plan of study

4th Yr. 1st sem
Phys 71 - 4 units
AR34 - 3
AR60 - 3
AR41 - 4
MST3 - 3
NSTP1 -(3)
PE2 -(2)
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17 units

4th yr. 2nd sem

Phys 72 - 4
AR35 - 3
AR42 - 4
AR61 - 3
Math 37 - 5
Ar26 - 3
NSTP 2 - (3)
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22 units

Summer S.Y 09-10

AR27 - 3
GE - 3
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6 units

5th yr. 1st sem

AR36 - 3
AR 51 - 4
AR 62 - 3
GE -3
GE -3
AR71 - 3
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19units

5th yr 2nd sem

AR 52 - 4
AR 59 - 3
AR 63 - 3
AR 47 - 2
AR 43 - 2
AR 72 - 3
PI 100 - 3
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20

6th yr. st sem

AR73 -3
AR 58 - 3
GE - 3
GE - 3
GE - 3
GE - 3
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18 units

plus another sem maybe..extension for my Thesis..

gosh...
6 yrs in college?
oh my! it's just supposed to be FIVE!
guess i have 2 more years as a student...

gi-rape: nangayo ug hustisya

2008-09-09T02:25:00.000-07:00

Thaaaaaaaaaabaaaaaaaaang!taga-i kog Justice mga kiki!
ako gi-rape sa usa ka babaye!

mura ba jud siya ug gi-rape?

mas mura man hinoun ug nanghagit magparape!

pero actually..nanghagit jud..hahaha
mura lang gling porma ug gi-rape...

dong?pagtarong ba...
abi plang gidaog-daog ka...

a short baby drama

2008-09-08T18:18:00.001-07:00

I am Gabby

one day i traveled far to discover the mysteries of the world

and met the man I've been waiting for..my soul mate...

Rashid...

we learned to love each other in no time..we were for each other..

i know we were...i love him dearly

until my parents stood between us..

they took him away from me..and i had no choice but let go..

i had no enough courage to fight for our love..and so did he...

i never stop thinking about him since then..

i was so depressed and didn't know what to do with my life...

i spend hours of staring at nothing..i was so weak..tired..i wanted to die..

i cried like a baby..i wasted myself...

i got myself drunk like hell...

i died...

and lived again..

i stood up..and faced the world...

- END -

written by me of course : LIzLeE

haha..this is my niece, Gabrielle..i just had fun looking at her pictures and somewhat noticed there's a little story behind it..and that was it..the story...
i just wish her mother won't see this..
hahaha

life is a dream

2008-09-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

note: it's not emo(for god's sake-DON't Call me EMO)

What is it to be human?
A question
Unanswerable
Impossible for us to grasp
Why are we here?
Another one of our unattainable queries

I feel as though I am being pulled away
From what is going on around me
From what was
And will be
I see no future
And what has passed
Floats through my mind as fragments
As though in a dream
Something that never happened

Drifting in the world of awake and asleep
I wonder if this is all a clever illusion
One a canny angel dreamed
And will disappear
Upon its awakening

To imagine all of this gone
How sad it would be
To think
That something so great
Could meet its end
Upon the end of slumber
Never having been
And never will be

Is it being insignificant that we fear most?
Is it this fact that makes us want to prove our existence?
Or is it the fear that our existence is not real,
That what we do does not matter
In the grand scheme of things

Are we arrogant?
Or is this just a world
Where we have become significant,
And feel so needed
That we think this could not be true...

'twas a hell of a trip!!!!

2008-09-08T04:50:00.000-07:00

damn...wooohooo!
what a day..
it gave me some back pains,
shoes filthy with mud,
wet pants,
sweat that has some identity crisis(don't know if it's hot or cold),
and sore feet...and oh!!!stained pants!forgot to bring an extra pad!
but guess what?

it was the best day this year..!!
where i've been?
sekreto..para bibo!

just one line!

2008-09-07T02:44:00.000-07:00

nyahaaaaa!
duh?
all my worries were gone...
i turned out laughing like hell and roll down like a dog...
nyahahahahaha....
there's nothing inside then?
hehehe..
though it's only seventy percent sure...it'll do...
hahahaha...
laugh with me baby...
hahahaha..
i wanna paaarrrttei!

i am lizlee

2008-09-01T01:13:00.000-07:00

What Lizlee Means

she is relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

she is light hearted and accepting. she don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what her secret to life is.

she tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get her excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

she have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. she don't stick with any one thing for very long.

she have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. her biggest problem is making sure she finish the projects she start.

she is incredibly wise and perceptive. she have a lot of life experience.

she is a natural peacemaker, and she is especially good at helping others get along.

But keeping the peace in her own life is not easy. she see things very differently, and it's hard to get her to budge.

she is friendly, charming, and warm. she get along with almost everyone.

she work hard not to rock the boat. her easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, she can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, she pull it together.

hell yeah!WE know that....

2008-08-31T23:47:00.000-07:00

WE..as in we - the women of the new society..me and my girlfriends..we are cute!hell yes!we are!...and we love to smoke...
but WE are to hide what we do..from boyfriends,family and other concerned individuals..why? because it has been marked by the society that women as cute as We are..Should NOT smoke! it's been a dogma that we are starting to break..i am not a feminist and this would be the first time I'll talk about fairness between men and women...but why the hell men can smoke freely and women can't?why do girls always look awful with a cigar in between their fingers while guys look good with it? this is just a very small fraction compared to the million issues about women deprived from the right to do things that only men are accepted to do. this isn't new...but hell..it annoys me lot...why do i always have to hide whenever i have to smoke?
why do i have to tell the store owner that I'm buying it for someone else? this world will never change..my neighbor's spreading gossips..that i am not a good woman..because i drink and smoke..hell..why?did i harm anyone when i do this things?i harm no one...but myself..but so far..I'm here..unharmed! ^_^

i'm not ready for this

2008-08-31T20:26:00.000-07:00

hahaha!
whenever i talk about it around other people i pretend to be happy about it...
but actually...
i wanna die!
like right this very moment!???
i drink to death every night hoping it will dissolve the thing!if it's really in there...
I've been waiting for signs of progress for two weeks now but still no traces of it...not a single drop!
i don't wanna go for drugs..
hell no...
i can't do that..
i don't really intend to kill what's inside(if it's really in there)
i just don't know what to do with it..
I'm not ready for this..
i can't run any test yet..
it's too early..
this thing really makes me feel so heavy..
I'm starting to get paranoid...
i never shed tears about it..
i just always find myself..staring at nothing and everybody starts to notice it...
i even ruined my friend's night out..
don't call me EMO..
I'm just simply emotional and that is normal...
I'm not like those Emo posers..
just this very moment...
all i can say 'bout myself is that I'm confused...
hell I'm confused...

puzzled...puzzilyzed?

2008-08-27T00:13:00.000-07:00

hahaha..what a day!

Starting Over
Starting over.
Its something a lot of people try very hard to do.
But what exactly does starting over mean to anyone?
Is it getting a new start?
Or it is instead running away from things that are impossible to avoid?
I'm not sure which part I'm doing, but this is my way of starting over.
Dark eyes veiled by Hair black as night
Watch me As I sleep Demons haunt my dreams
Sleep flys away from Me As a falcon pursues Its prey Into the ignorance of My being.
Why am I here writing These things What good do they do me,
Or the world?
A door opens into a Dark world of Fright and Devastation
A fire of Death Burns Around me, are the Forgotten Alone
and Afraid these People cling to their Forgotten lives of Splendor
and Magnificence Where they are the centre of Everyone's Universe
They don't know
They don't know how to Start over.

tulo ka tuig sa gugma sa LAMDAG!!!

2008-08-13T21:06:00.000-07:00

wow..i thought it was even longer than three years...much have happened..i thought it took me a decade to pass through the Ups and downs and downs of being a LAMDAG. Each year when this time comes I'm reminded of how i survived..wooooooh...have i really survived? well i guess so...why would i be here then and call myself a LAMDAG if i haven't get through the knees and elbows whacking my legs? hahahaha...memories they are..no traces were left...but it did leave me brothers and sisters who loves me more than i love them..
they never leave me..they're always there when i cry..(churva..so emo ang tirada)..newayz..i miss them!
we were six when we survived but there was only three of us left to celebrate last night..MYRA, NInYA and ME...i miss Mitch olive, ren and taisha...they were taken away by an unfortunate event...an event that took 32 of my brothers and sisters away from school...hhuuuuuhhhmmmm...

architecture= prostitution

2008-08-12T19:44:00.000-07:00

Are you ARKI?
1. You work weird (night time) - Overtime ... Just like prostitutes
2. They pay you to make the client happy... Just like a prostitute
3. The client pays a lot of money, but your employer keeps almost every penny... Just like a prostitute
4. You are rewarded for fulfilling the client's dreams... Just like a prostitute
5. Your friendships fall apart and you end up hanging out with people in the same profession as you... Just like a prostitute
6. When you have to meet the client you always have to be perfectly groomed... Just like a prostitute
7. But when you go back home it seems like you are coming back from hell... Just like a prostitute
8. The client always wants to pay less but expects incredible things from you... Just like a prostitute
9. When people ask you about your job, you have difficulties to explain it... Just like a prostitute
10. Everyday when you wake up, you say: "I'm not going to spend the rest of my life doing this." Just like a prostitute !?

so I'm gonna be a prostitute someday..

sweet but sour??

2008-08-12T00:32:00.000-07:00

Strawberry- Yogurt for cough: good or not? NOT!

Lick the lollipop of life
Let it's bitter taste secrete itself into your mouth
As you search for meaning beyond the strife
At the end of your black and gray rainbows.

Pick a rose of love
Inhale deeply enjoy it's scent.
Protect your hand with a glove
Lest you become pricked by thorns of heartache.

Lick the lollipop you're given.
How many licks to the soft, chewy center?
Keep chasing those rainbows as long as your living
But the ends are never the same.

Children crying on the playground
No laughter or smiles today
Life has worn the parents down and they are no where to be found.
This is what you see you're whole world's gray.

Lick the lollipop of utter bitterness
Your world will never know how many licks you take to get to the sweet.
You're still searching the rainbows so colorless
But at the end you find only mere pots of gold.

I've been suffering from flu for two days now. Yes I do, but i still managed to create a new Blog. I know i had a blog a year ago but i can't remember my password..i haven't updated it for quite a long time now..and finally lose it
anywayzz..i had lunch at 2pm today.. i then saw these strawberry-yogurt lollipops at our canteen and it really looked so good so i purchased a couple and sucked it out all the way back to my classroom...heck.. i started to cough really really bad..
what i'm trying to say is..hahahaha..forget about your g**amned guilty pleasures when you have a g**amned cough!

this was something i was forced to write..

2008-08-11T22:48:00.000-07:00

she lied, they died

empty speeches,lies,they flow out of your mouth
you need not to shout,you can say all you want
but you better mean it, you better do it
no more apologies will be accepted

every thing's gone high when you were seated
poverty's killing human race,hell's fucking the world!woman!
what are you gonna do now? stop pushing us around!
zip up your shameless mouth, what is it good for?

this never-ending story has to end,you got to leave
why not start your way down from that mansion now?
and let us all live,
man, we gotta choose someone better...better than she is..